why do i call this the gray zone?

why do i call this the gray zone? because it’s where life gets gray. Where the things i ought to do, i just can’t seem to do. or i start to do and realize this isn’t meeting my expectations. it’s not truth that is gray. i believe truth is truth—and the God and His Word are the ultimate guidelines by which all other truth is measured. no, it’s me that’s gray. I’m not lukewarm. I’m not passive in my faith. I really want to follow Jesus. It’s just when that desire meets reality it gets messy, cloudy. It’s not longer black and white, it’s gray.